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Don't Forget by shadowkaru15, literature

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Don't Forget

I’m not even as half as strong as I wish to be. I’m not even a quarter of how clever I’d like to be. I’m not, I’m not, I’m not oh so many things. But I’m a million times better then I was at the start, a hundred times better than I was ten years ago and a fraction better than I was yesterday. The things that defines me, are what I’ve been creating all my life. It’s the result of the mistakes and flaws I’ve collected on my road and the hope and courage I’ve created for myself. I’m not even a fraction of what I wish to be but it’s alright, I know it is. Because as

Another piece of me by shadowkaru15, literature

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Another piece of me

There’s a heartbeat echoing in my ears again and a soft knocking on the door to my soul. There’s a wisp in the wind and a delicate sigh forever etched on my lower lip because you never came to pick it up. Don’t worry about it, in the end it’s only lines on broken, crumpled pages tossed away on dusty roads you forgot you even passed. You and I, we gave me a pulse to dance too, but my wings are to light to catch this movement so I’m content with floating in this fraction of a smile. Next year I will paint these walls green but for today, I will settle with these scraped knees. But it’s the small things

How dare you compare my baby to a Volvo (Destiel) by shadowkaru15, literature

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How dare you compare my baby to a Volvo (Destiel)

Original idea: Got in the wrong car AU Summary:"Dude, how can you mistake my awesome sweet ride for some boring family-friendly Volvo??" Dean didn't know he was more offended about the fact the stranger was comparing his sweet ride to a Volvo or the fact that he didn’t see any difference between them. At least he was cute. A/N: Only Cas, only Cas... also, all mistakes are mine and mine alone, feel free to correct me, I won't be mad (really, I know as much about cars as Cas). Done for my darling Sachi, happy birthday dear, hope you enjoy this Destiel fanfic. We do love AU’s right? Also, English is not my first language, so…

Hold your tongue for now by shadowkaru15, literature

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Hold your tongue for now

There's a roar in my throat dawning like a dragon on a hot summer afternoon. It threatens to take over my oath of never speaken out of turn, of biting my tongue rather than let it loose. I have an inkling to let it do as it please but my love is chains, holding my forbidden spells of courage and I will swallow this rupture for now since that is what young girls like me are allowed to do. But this skin won't hold for long and these eyelashes won't hide my flame for an eternity as black as the dawn on mountains high and proud. So this is your one and only fair warning before I will take back what is rightfully mine. I am here and soon I wil

Oh love, tie me loose by shadowkaru15, literature

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Oh love, tie me loose

This song I sing, it keeps me away from you but it's the only one I know and yet I can't stand the tune. Your words are a shield I want to hide behind them but that way I will never grow out of this dress my mother made. Don't play this game I'm tired of the dealer, I just can't get any break. Let's board the last train and be done with this town once and for all. Won't you escape this tune with me? I want to stop the ringing inside my brain before the cracks start to show.

A sequel to a story yet unwritten by shadowkaru15, literature

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A sequel to a story yet unwritten

Words they gnawl in my stomach again turning my courage into acid, forcing me to smile when everything is shaking. My wings are turning to water before my reflection, twisting into shadows washed up on the shore. Bones are hollowing before my eyes, calling me on for crimes I have yet to discover from my distraught past. When does act two start? Tell me the name of the song, I know it by heart, but my mouth refuse to co-operate (it's acting up again). Soon it will all be over, but for now it has only just begun and the countdown is ticking louder and louDER in my head. Click. I promised you a sequel, the continuation of a story unwr

All in my head by shadowkaru15, literature

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All in my head

We learned a lot together when we were little, she and I. For example, the movies taught us there are lot of heroes out there but the newspapers showed me that villains don't play fair. For every step I took the world forced me a half one back. She was the one to hold my hand when I realized words are heavier than stones and that ink can hurt more than any broken bones. She told me it's all in my head. I took the words and clutched them tight but I must have closed my eyes because they dissappeared at night. The sandglass froze right at the twenty-first drop. And when the water started to flood in she just smiled and said as I reached out

Pick It Up by shadowkaru15, literature

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Pick It Up

It will be better tomorrow. I write with words that are turning empty again. I walk street simply because I have to not because I long to. The demons are gnawling at the walls in my stomach again and I can't squeeze myself small enough to make them stop. I have a whole ocean in my lungs tonight and it's making my head loose connection with my heart (again). I force my feet to walk and my teeth to chew but it all taste like paper, but I know if I let go completely I won't be able to come up for air from this vast sea anymore. Pick it up, please pick it up. I'll be strong tomorrow I promise. Just let me be a little girl for now. I just

I could feel it too by shadowkaru15, literature

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I could feel it too

Yesterday, I closed my eyes and took a deep breathe and dove into the canvas I call myself. I looked at the mountains, I had barely been able to climb (but did in the end) I fed the birds with crumbs made from my frustration and sorrow and heard them sing. I even boldy glanced briefly into the boxes labeled with dark red letters in the darkest corner, but the shivers down my spine stopped me from looking too long. I also visited the lakes made from the tears I had shed in moments black and cold and added some more, (but just a few) before I looked up at the beautiful trees that surrounded the lake, not yet in full bloom. It looked like t

Another way of saying I do by shadowkaru15, literature

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Another way of saying I do

I want to protect you I want to shelter you to scream so loud no one can ignore your pain. But my lungs are leaking, my throat is sore and my tongue is rotten to the core. And just like the boy who cried wolf, I too, feel the weight of grey lies prickling my skin and when I finally try to paint in white the red is dripping down on my canvas and you turn away and I hide in shame. I want to love, to hold you close but my arms are heavy, my hands are tightly clutched while my heart is stalling, fighting against my own reaper. So I sang a song threw in pretty words, words about love and eternal faith but the guitar chords strung empty and f

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Don't Forget by shadowkaru15, literature

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Another piece of me by shadowkaru15, literature

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Another piece of me

How dare you compare my baby to a Volvo (Destiel) by shadowkaru15, literature

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How dare you compare my baby to a Volvo (Destiel)

Hold your tongue for now by shadowkaru15, literature

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Hold your tongue for now

Oh love, tie me loose by shadowkaru15, literature

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Oh love, tie me loose

A sequel to a story yet unwritten by shadowkaru15, literature

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A sequel to a story yet unwritten

All in my head by shadowkaru15, literature

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All in my head

Pick It Up by shadowkaru15, literature

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Pick It Up

I could feel it too by shadowkaru15, literature

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I could feel it too

Another way of saying I do by shadowkaru15, literature

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Another way of saying I do

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May 16
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shadowkaru15

Jun 23, 2013

Still Alive

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Hello awesoem people! I don't know how many of my dA friends are still active here on deviantArt, but I felt I should update a bit^^ I have to admit that I spend more time on tumblr nowadays, so if anyone wants to follow me there, send me a note and I'll give you my tumblr name^^ My year in university has been very hectic, with lots of courses, tests and activites. I joined a choir and we held a winter concert and even went to Dublin on a choir trip, which was very nice and we sang on a lot of different places =) I met a lot of new people and got new friends and learned more about myself. As the saying goes, you get to know yourself throu

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shadowkaru15

Dec 23, 2012

Merry Christmas

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Merry Christmas or Happy Holidays or anything else you have :glomp: Lots of love to you all and hopefully you will get to eat a lot of chocolate and delicious food!!! With love, Shadowie

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shadowkaru15

Nov 25, 2012

Got tagged

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Got tagged by: AKALykos (https://www.deviantart.com/akalykos) (sorry for being so late in replying! ^^;) My questions: 1. Have you ever been bullied, and did you do something about that? Oh gosh, off with a pretty serious question right of the start. Hm, well to be honest, I did go through a rough few years when I was younger (like around ten) because of my weight and acne problems. Nothing too major, but it's not something I look back to with joy at least. 2. Are you popular at school? I wouldn't say popular, but I do have a few friends^^ as I started a  new school, or at a university in my case, I think that's enough for now. Plsu my old friend from my hometown. 3. D